Thursday, October 9, 2008
Irrational Insomnia
I am my mothers daughter. We both suffer from insomnia. I generally wake up in the middle of the night panicked about something or another. We need to save up tons of money TONIGHT, I need to get all my homework for the next 3 weeks done TONIGHT, branch audit at work needs to be done TONIGHT, etc. You get the picture. I have always assumed that there was some rationality to my insomnia. Somehow my subconscious must be telling me something really, really important. That's the only reason for me to wake up, right? So like a good girl, I would lie awake and try to solve the problem that I was supposed to solve that night. After last night though, I'm beginning to think there's nothing rational about my insomnia. Last nights pressing problem to be solved. I have to make sure my parachute opens when I go sky diving. I'm sure that would be a great problem to solve except.......I'm not going sky diving.
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Hmmmm, that is quite a perplexing problem. Do you write down what you think about in the middle of the night. I realized that if something is bugging me enough to wake me up or keep me awake that if I write it down then I'm not worried about trying to remember it or figure it out. Also, everytime I woke up in the middle of the night I never used to know why I was awake and I would be up forever so I started going to the bathroom every time I woke up. I don't know if I was too tire dto actually realize it or what but somehow it helps. If I wake up I go to the bathroom then go right back to bed. Kind of weird but it worked for me after years of being up in the middle of the night :)
Usually it is the bathroom thing for me, too. Only after I go back to bed I don't go back to sleep when I'm under a lot of stress. The more the stress, the more the insomnia, the more the tired so I don't get things done, the more the stress ... it is such a stupid snowball. I'm not sure where your parachute came from, but you're right. It's always a good thing to make sure it will open - there may be a very good object lesson there. Love you!
Haha. I am having some of that insomnia too....I had it in high school where I would do my homework in my head..now I am starting a new job I have been stressing about if I am doing everything right and such. Got to love it.
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